Java Verses

Shouting, Roaring, Ranting, Whispering, Singing . . . Verse

Sunday, August 28, 2005


The spacing between lines is not what I was going for, but its not responding the way I want.

She testified . . .
Everyday . . .
For years . . .
In her mind . . .

The lawyers
In their
Gucci suits

Never called
Never came
In search of her

They didn’t see
Behind the crushed
Velvet creases
Burnt orange
Curtains . . .

We . . .
Knew . . .
Him . . .
Had . . .
For . . .
Years . . .

Heard . . .
Strange . . .
Down . . .
Lengthy . . .
Hallways . . .

They never asked
. . . this child

No one ever asked
Me . . . or her

Our friends
Hidden ignored

Conviction . . .


Some other child’s . . .
Word . . . was enough

They . . . never looked . . . here

Because courts never asked
Because she never told
The right people . . .
Because . . .they
Never made him pay,
She did . . .Grandmas in denial


Ok, this is a little silly, but what the hell . . .

Woman . . .

Sometimes we as women,
Have a hard time . . .
Identifying with MALES
The old time “oppressors”
Those cavemen brutes
Those corporate sexist pigs

But think for a minute,
Woman . . .
Before you go on your next
Holy crusade of male bashing
Have we become the oppressors now?
Cavewomen, sows
Still nursing resentment
Long past its prime?

I don’t understand you,
You’re still trying to down the “man”
While crawling in the broken glass
Filled attic, the ceiling’s broken
Where do you have left to go?

Stomping the heads of brothers,
Fathers, uncles, “boy” friends,
Who personally did you no harm?
These passive, active, male women’s libbers

You still want to beat your
Bongo drums, marching, chanting,
“This penis parties got to go, Hey, Hey, Ho, Ho”

Bouncing bra-less

Damn it woman!
The wo in wo-man
Was not meant to make us worse!

Aug 27, Ed Aug 28 2001

There is a peace in finding answers

There is a peace in finding answers
Forgotten in the earth,
By distractions pulling
Syllables through the air
Elusive as smoke . . .
Found the question calling
Out in high notes on the back
Of a leaf left drifting in smoggy years
Feel the winding body wrapping serenade,
The future tickles my ears . . .
Tiptoe, and trip, sing stand and try one more
Silly step, dizzy dance holds my hand and head
Hearty and hesitant

Moon Kin

I feel something, inside of me.
I have no words to explain,
In proper English sentences.

The smoky gray storm clouds
Hugging the moon, who peeks her head
Around it’s smothering arms.
Under gaps and beneath edges.
Unsure, whether to come out for good,
Or if it’s her bed time,
Along with the night owls, and vampires
Who don’t need or understand harsh daylight
The suns irrepressible cheery heat

I must be kin to her in some
Distant primal past

I have no memory with which to recall
But her light is like unto my blood
Necessary at times, to be shed
I feel myself bleeding,
Wounds never quite stanched

I don’t know when I stubbed my toe,
Ripping off the protective nail,
Or when I pricked my finger,
Bit my lip, scrapped my knees
Scratched my chest . . .
But I must be hemophilic,
For I’m still bleeding

Friday, August 19, 2005


I forgot all about this poem, I just found it on my computer and thought I’d post, it about 4/5 years old.
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I lay with my ear pressed,
Against warm flesh of your arm
A ringing sounds . . .
From fathoms deep,
Burrowed in your bones

Percussion sounds reverberate my skull
The faint insistent ring

The rise . . .
And fall . . .
Your chest
Is  out  of  sync

With my

Your heart beat,      
Ba boom,
Ba boom,
Ba boom,

It comforts me,
Strangely, to know deep inside you’ll keeps going
You know it’s you who steals my sleep

Ba boom
Ba boom
Ba boom
Your heart beat
It pulls the strings,
Leads the concert,
Conducts the orchestra
Of breath, blood, and vitality.
Your parted lips led the stricken symphony
In the holding court of stolen silence

It calls out to me
Conflicting sounds,
I can’t interpret
Your body’s compositions
Drawing back unto the tower of Babel

It wakes me up at night,
The angry anchient staccado
You sleep soundly
I check the phone,
A dial tone greets me
Though I know it's you, I still check the door.
Keep telling myself that I just have
Remarkable hearing, wish
The damn neighbors would not
Get calls so late

I hear its echo when I’m alone,
In the space we rent,
But can’t call home
The plaster cracks, splits
As Your percussion bounces
Off walls of tainted canvas
Filtering through me with every pass
Straining my mind of rational thought

Seal the windows, shut and lock the door
Must . . . keep the vibrating sound inside,
Escape . . . cannot let it follow me.
Flee from the den of trembling noise,
Driving me from sanity . . . tormenting me

A conflict inside you,
It doesn’t include you
Refuses to exclude me,
Fights and races me
It waits for you,
Wants you to discover it,
But torments only me.
Unfulfilled, uncontained,
Fighting me, frightening me,
Repeating things I should not know.
I am weak, it all drains me
You are ringing, pounding
My past is buzzing
The line is busy

What has happened to all the poets?

***This is a short paper I wrote a few years ago that seems particually apt lately, So because it deals with poetry, even though it is not poetry, I wanted to post it. ****

There are many forms of art, which we encounter everyday. Musicians are adored, actor/actresses are admired, sculptors, painters, designers, novelist, all of these are exalted for their forms of art. When reading Patricia Hampl’s, “A Romantic Education,” it brought to mind the scorn we place on poets. What has happened to all the poets? Did they die out? Is theirs a lost art form? Did they commit a sin so heinous that they deserve scorn and ridicule? Or perhaps our culture just stopped listening? Could it be we no longer wish to empathize with each other, or maybe we just don’t know how to anymore?

There is no other art form so mocked, hated and derided than that of poetry. Is it any wonder that the poets have drawn back up into their shells and become “closet” poets? They have been called dreamers, crackpots, and lunatics, gay, worthless. Why? Because they dared to write and express emotions that we’d rather not deal with. Forcing us to listen and think about their feeling and ideas. They use poetry to communicate feeling, illicit empathy, envy, understanding and healing. This kind of interaction is important to our social and emotional well being. Poetry is an art form that expresses emotion. Now, due to social scorn of poetry and poets, many have been forced to suppress emotions that are unhealthy and often this has caused disastrous results. Everyday we see violence and hear crude language on television, both real and fictional that is desensitizing us to our fellow human beings.

Before we move on let me explain what I mean by art, poetry and communication. According to Webster’s Seventh New Collegiate Dictionary, “Art is the conscious use of skill, taste, and creative imagination in the production of acetic objects, and also works produced.” Poetry is defined as “Writing that formulates a concentrated imaginative awareness of experiences in a chosen language, and arranged to create a specific emotional response through meaning, sound, and rhythm.” Communication is a technique for expressing ideas effectively. As you can see, by these definitions, poetry is an art, which allows us to express emotion and receive a response. That sounds harmless enough, so why does it incite such derision among the general populace?

In Hampl’s “A Romantic Education”, she says “I am enough of them, my kind of family, to be repelled by the significance of things, to find poetry with it’s tendency to make connections to past and present and break barriers, slightly embarrassing.” This is coming from one who is a self-professed poet. So why all the fuss you might ask? After all our school systems teach it, it’s still on the shelves at libraries and bookstores. Because though it is there, there it stays, gathering dust. We have a nation protesting that we don’t need this frivolous use of words, and we don’t have time for silliness. We don’t care to hear about the angst, whining or mushy poetry. We have tuned out each other’s feelings. We see and hear of murders, rapes, kidnappings, and catastrophes and say that it’s too bad. Why do we do this? Simply because we don’t want to care, we don’t want to get involved. We don’t want to be scorned as weak because we do care and cannot help doing so.

Finances also play insidious role in our gauging of self worth. Society says if you make a lot of money you are worthwhile and that if you do not you should get a “real” job. But due to the cultural derision of poetry, no one buys it. If it is not bought then poets do not get paid. So therefor they are not worthwhile and should get a “real” job. Do they, yes, they are hiding in your office, schoolrooms, day cares and drive through windows. They hide because of their fear of being called a dreamer, a crackpot, fruitcake, or worst of all, a “Poet”.

If we as adults do all this, what are we teaching our children? Our children are growing up in a time when role models are few and dangers are many. They are continually faced with not only the normal cruelties of childhood, but also excessive violence and extreme lack of caring. Many of these very children have lashed out on their environments because of this lack of understanding and caring. I am not in any way excusing their actions; yet how much empathy did these children receive? Could these children understand the grief they wrought? Could they empathize with their victims? Can empathy be taught? If they could have empathized would it have stopped these senseless tragedies? We have taught them to read, write and to scorn poetry and their creators, through our adult behavior. Many children see poetry as a childishness to be avoided so that they will seem more grown up. Do the children of today know what it is to communicate emotionally, without suppressing their feelings, to be taken out in anger and resentment? We all need an emotional outlet, and poetry is not the only venue for this, however through a desire to understand, poetry teaches empathy. Empathy is the capacity for participating in another’s feelings or ideas. Children and adults alike need to relearn how to communicate emotionally, in other words to empathize. Fear of rejection has imprisoned them. Throughout history people have felt the same emotions we do. But they didn’t keep them suppressed. If they had many of a great works of art would not be here today. We all need a positive release from our mind's bondage. Poetry can offer just that. With each verse you are pulled farther into the poets world, their point of view. They are not so different from you, they feel the same as you do, but they express it constructively. They let down the barrier to their very souls, a precious gift; they let you in to explore. We as a culture must embrace this again and teach our children it’s all right to do the same. We must tell that there is no shame in showing emotion. Because it is most important that we do not lose our self and how to understand each other, or else we will have nothing left except an ever-escalating piercing scream for emotional release.